Preview of The Chance of Invincibility

Hello everyone! So, I was reviewing the first chapter of the book I’m currently working on, and I figured that I’d give everyone a sneak peek – a tiny preview if you will.

Now, this is still a first draft, and I haven’t even nearly finished the story, but I do rather like this very first page of the very first chapter. Check it out:

     I am alone.

     I have been alone for 6 months, now.

     Irrevocably alone? I hope not.

     Eternally alone? If there only was such a thing as an eternity, an endless continuity.

     Selectively alone? I think so.

     Depressingly alone? Probably.

    In my opinion, loneliness isn’t something that can be defined as “a complex and usually unpleasant emotional response to isolation”. It’s larger than that, isn’t it? It’s an esoteric, voluminous, void that essentially takes over the larger part of a persons life. There has never been a happy ending for someone who is completely, utterly, and dishearteningly, alone. There is no such thing as cheerfully isolated, or is there?

     Have I ever experienced loneliness? Unquestionably.

     Have I ever dreaded it? Perhaps.

     Have I ever relished in it? Can one even relish in seclusion?

     Am I lonely now? I’m doing this, so I guess it’s up to you to decide that.

     Perhaps there is something as blessedly alone? You can’t be expected to like everyone all the time. I mean, can people demand that you should constantly feel the ubiquitous presence of love, and completeness?  Or rather, people shouldn’t be expected to want to feel that all the time? What is so distasteful about being by yourself? Is it so iniquitous to want to be by yourself? I want to be by myself, so perhaps there is something wrong with me.

     Am I writing this surreptitiously? I’m not sure.

     Am I writing this openly? Define openly.

     Am I writing this biasedly? Anyone who has ever written anything has done so biasedly, have they not?

     Should I even be writing this? You tell me.

     I have often pondered over my emotions, perhaps more than I should have. However, I can’t help but come to the conclusion the concept of defining my emotions, such as loneliness, is a waste of my time. Why do I need to define what I’m feeling? Can’t I just feel what I feel, and you feel what you feel, and everyone just feeling what they’re feeling by their selves? I mean, why does everyone need to know what feelings mean? Shouldn’t the point of feelings be its elusiveness?

So… what do you think? Should I just give up writing all together because of my obvious “suckieness”? Tell me what you think in the comments section below!

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Music Monday – Go Your Own Way by Lissie

Hi!

So, I’ve been working on my new novel, and for some reason this song is really inspiring to write to, so I’m going to make this week’s Music Monday! The first Music Monday, ever, I might add…

Check it out:

Speaking of noveling, is anyone else doing Camp NaNoWriMo? Anyone else adore this song?

Let me know in the comments section below.

DRM?

Hi! Now, the thing is, I am contemplating having DRM or not, and I honest to God cannot decide.

For those of you who don’t know, DRM stands for Digital Rights Management, and, “DRM (Digital Rights Management) is intended to inhibit unauthorized distribution of the Kindle file of your book.”

Now, some writers want to have this, but others don’t. Me? I have no clue.

See, the thing is I do want a lot of people to read my book, and I want as many people as possible read it, but then at the same time, I don’t want to just find it on Torrent or something – I worked really hard on this book.

However, I know that I’m not a professional author, and that perhaps as much “advertisement” as possible would be more beneficial, plus I do want for everyone to read it…

I’m in a bit of a pickle…

If you could spare just a few minutes with a short reply, it would be so very much appreciated.